The path of love, for me was always wrong...

All it took was one glance and I felt something different,

I couldn’t tell either if it was your eyes or your smile

But there was a pull from deep inside that I’d never felt before.

As time went on the pull got stronger,

The truth came out,

My  past was told but,

I felt safe…

My like for you blossomed into something I don’t even believe in…

Love.

I told you about it, you said nothing.

Your silence left me on edge for days,

And when you came back, you acted just the same.

I should’ve known then that something was wrong.

Instead my heart came out from behind her barriers,

The elaborate fortress that she had built from years of abuse to protect herself from people,

People like you.

And now she’s bleeding as she limps back to her home,

She doesn’t want to go back though, she wanted to stay with you…

But as she takes the dagger out of herself she realizes that it was the usual thing she hates,

A Beautiful Lie.

So for now I cradle her close inside me,

She aches and cries for a love she’s always been craving,

But never get fulfilled.

And it just affirms her worst fears…

She will always be alone,

Because no one can love her.

She doesn’t want to pick up the shattered pieces of herself anymore,

They’ve broken too many times

None of them fit right anymore.

She’s fought too many battles, gotten hurt every time and she just wants to give up…

So I’ll bandage her up,

Hide her again,

Tell her how much I love her and need her.

And hope that maybe her aching will stop as time goes on…

So it won’t affect me

All over again.

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Topic and Questions for Interview

For my Interview topic I want it to be how the choices they made as children/young adults, or even things they went through made them into the person they are today.
1.Who were your heros while you were growing up?  Why?
2.What kind of person did you see yourself becoming? Did you become that person?
3.What events in your life altered you from your path?
4.Do you ever wish you could've done something else instead of what you're doing?
5. What are you looking to do in the future?
6.What did you want in life then compared to what you want now?
7.Do you think God guided you in any certain way?
8.Were there any people who helped you in life to make these decisions?
9.What does the word vocation mean to you?

Monty Python- Vocational Guidence Counselor

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Interview Summary

Stephen Greenblatt: "So that represented my own little rebellion."

 

This man to me is amazing, his life in what he has accomplished is phenomenal.  How he grew up encompassed with stories and other literature to me sounds like heaven, even though none of his family were people of the arts, they still made time for them.  As well as allowed their children to engulf their subconciousness with themes, imagination and free flowing opinionated thoughts.  I wish more families were like that these days.  Mr. Greenblatt also speaks of how he was influenced by the many books he read as a child as well as a teacher(s), Sam Granger and John Harris, who opened his mind to the influences of intellectual integrity as well as showing him what can happen when you open up you mind to literature.  And even though this brilliant man had the brains and college acceptances to go to law school, he continued to want to pursue English, specifically Shakespeare, because of the way it captured him.  So in order to learn more he spent two years in Cambridge studying and learning all that he could, but at some point he decided to bite the hand that fed him, he engrossed himself in what was suppose to be uninteresting to him.  He wrote many, many of his thoughts about Shakespearian literature as well as some of his own books in order to have people understand more, or uncover more about the things that were written.  Overall the paths that this man took for his life made him extraordinary, and I hope that my paths may even possibly do the same for me. 



I think...

There are times, like right now, when I look back down the paths I have chosen and wonder if this is who I am suppose to be...  But the more I ponder this very question the more things I come to realize.  I chose that path because of my want to help others.  I chose that other path because I never want them to face their demons alone.  I chose this path for the people I love, so they wouldn't know pain without me there beside them to help pick them up and fight beside them.

The Way the World Operates...

There are certain kinds of people in this world.  People that plan everything before it happens (Well-Planned Life) and those who just ride the rollercoaster to see what may be thrown at them (Summoned Life).  The Well-Planned Life to me sounds  boring, like something those weird Type A people cling to in their lives.  Something that won't ever change, and they are okay with that but that doesn't appeal to me.  Where are the Summoned Life tends to make things exciting,  it exposes you to the elements leaving you bare and waiting fo the next adreanline rush to have you end this high.  It's all by random, never knowing what exactly is behind each door they face.  But the memories that follow each decision is what is key to being happy with which ever one you follow.

Thinking on what Vocation can do in your life, once you choose a path.

Let's get this started!